Depression, Anxiety

[five 7]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

I'm 53. I've been taking medication for depression, diabetes, high blood pressure and cholesterol for 15 years. Until about a month ago. I came to the conclusion that none of it was working. So, I stopped all medication and seeing doctors and am now just letting nature take its course.
I have an actual date for early next year in mind where, if things haven't improved by then, I'm out. I can't cope anymore.

Mate with your last comment please find someone to talk to or new doctor. If you can't think of yourself, consider the people around you. I have witnessed the devastation first hand to friends and family, also had the chance to possibly help and do regret not saying anything.
All the best Mark,,,

[Syndrome]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

I'm 53. I've been taking medication for depression, diabetes, high blood pressure and cholesterol for 15 years. Until about a month ago. I came to the conclusion that none of it was working. So, I stopped all medication and seeing doctors and am now just letting nature take its course.
I have an actual date for early next year in mind where, if things haven't improved by then, I'm out. I can't cope anymore.

I hope things have improved for you.

[FoxtrotGolfXray 5.0]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

I'm 53. I've been taking medication for depression, diabetes, high blood pressure and cholesterol for 15 years. Until about a month ago. I came to the conclusion that none of it was working. So, I stopped all medication and seeing doctors and am now just letting nature take its course.
I have an actual date for early next year in mind where, if things haven't improved by then, I'm out. I can't cope anymore.

Hey vekgib,

Been a while since I've been in this thread and just saw your post. And it's shocked me a little. As per the other posts, please reach out to someone and talk through your situation with them, whilst most of us may not be able to help solve your problems, maybe just talking to someone will be a first good step.

If it's not a doctor, or a family member, or a friend, try one of the following:

Lifeline 13 11 14
Beyond Blue 1300 224 636
Men's Helpline 1300 78 99 78

Or if you prefer, chat with someone on here. PM me if you feel that will help and I'll give you my mobile number.

Just talk to someone mate. If you feel like you are a burden to your family and/or friends, I can assure you that there will be a lot more people who will miss you than those who will be relieved you are gone.

Please come back in here and let us know how you are going. We just want to make sure you're ok.

Please take care of yourself.

Craig

[Syndrome]

Originally Posted by FoxtrotGolfXray 5.0

Hey vekgib,

Been a while since I've been in this thread and just saw your post. And it's shocked me a little. As per the other posts, please reach out to someone and talk through your situation with them, whilst most of us may not be able to help solve your problems, maybe just talking to someone will be a first good step.

If it's not a doctor, or a family member, or a friend, try one of the following:

Lifeline 13 11 14
Beyond Blue 1300 224 636
Men's Helpline 1300 78 99 78

Or if you prefer, chat with someone on here. PM me if you feel that will help and I'll give you my mobile number.

Just talk to someone mate. If you feel like you are a burden to your family and/or friends, I can assure you that there will be a lot more people who will miss you than those who will be relieved you are gone.

Please come back in here and let us know how you are going. We just want to make sure you're ok.

Please take care of yourself.

Craig

Vekgib logged on to this site yesterday.

http://fordforums.com.au/member.php?u=2228554

[Vekgib]

Originally Posted by Syndrome

Vekgib logged on to this site yesterday.

http://fordforums.com.au/member.php?u=2228554

Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post on this thread.
Things are not perfect, but they are significantly better than when I typed that post. A new doctor, new medication, and most importantly, a new outlook have all contributed.
As I said, I'm not great, but in a better place. Occasionally, I take a step or two backwards. But who doesn't at some stage ?
Thank you again gentlemen. Although "thank you" doesn't say enough. Reading your comments make for a humbling experience.
FWIW, the date I had in mind was this Thursday, 16 January. It's unfortunately significant to my dad ( R.I.P ) and I.
But I'll be logging in on Thursday and Friday. And hopefully for a long time after that.
Gentlemen, if any of you are struggling, please reach out. To a friend, a doctor, a workmate, even people you've never met on an internet forum.
I did, and I'm glad.
It's OK to say you're not OK.

[Citroënbender]

Thank you, truly.

[Syndrome]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post on this thread.
Things are not perfect, but they are significantly better than when I typed that post. A new doctor, new medication, and most importantly, a new outlook have all contributed.
As I said, I'm not great, but in a better place. Occasionally, I take a step or two backwards. But who doesn't at some stage ?
Thank you again gentlemen. Although "thank you" doesn't say enough. Reading your comments make for a humbling experience.
FWIW, the date I had in mind was this Thursday, 16 January. It's unfortunately significant to my dad ( R.I.P ) and I.
But I'll be logging in on Thursday and Friday. And hopefully for a long time after that.
Gentlemen, if any of you are struggling, please reach out. To a friend, a doctor, a workmate, even people you've never met on an internet forum.
I did, and I'm glad.
It's OK to say you're not OK.

Mate I'm glad you are doing better.

[ArnoldKMB]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post on this thread.
Things are not perfect, but they are significantly better than when I typed that post. A new doctor, new medication, and most importantly, a new outlook have all contributed.
As I said, I'm not great, but in a better place. Occasionally, I take a step or two backwards. But who doesn't at some stage ?
Thank you again gentlemen. Although "thank you" doesn't say enough. Reading your comments make for a humbling experience.
FWIW, the date I had in mind was this Thursday, 16 January. It's unfortunately significant to my dad ( R.I.P ) and I.
But I'll be logging in on Thursday and Friday. And hopefully for a long time after that.
Gentlemen, if any of you are struggling, please reach out. To a friend, a doctor, a workmate, even people you've never met on an internet forum.
I did, and I'm glad.
It's OK to say you're not OK.

glad you're ok mate hope to see you only doing better from now on. Thursday 16 Jan is in a few days, stay strong!

[buggerlugs]

Originally Posted by Vekgib

Thank you to everyone who commented on my last post on this thread.
Things are not perfect, but they are significantly better than when I typed that post. A new doctor, new medication, and most importantly, a new outlook have all contributed.
As I said, I'm not great, but in a better place. Occasionally, I take a step or two backwards. But who doesn't at some stage ?
Thank you again gentlemen. Although "thank you" doesn't say enough. Reading your comments make for a humbling experience.
FWIW, the date I had in mind was this Thursday, 16 January. It's unfortunately significant to my dad ( R.I.P ) and I.
But I'll be logging in on Thursday and Friday. And hopefully for a long time after that.
Gentlemen, if any of you are struggling, please reach out. To a friend, a doctor, a workmate, even people you've never met on an internet forum.
I did, and I'm glad.
It's OK to say you're not OK.

Great stuff................

[Grega]

Hi.

I'm intently listening in to an RUOK presentation at the moment, so just reaching out to folks to say RUOK? I know from my own personal experience this might seem like lip service and, if you're in that space that I have been in, you won't want to hear it and it will bounce off the sides. Just know there are people out there who love you and really want you to stick around. You probably won't want to hear that, but, if you do, then, its OK - you'll get through it.

[sr71]

This time last year, 2 friends decided to end their life. The one who filled his belly with pills, died. The other one drove to work and tied a noose to his truck, and survived. He was too heavy, and broke the rope.
I'm grateful that the 2nd friend made it. He has done it tough since, but getting there. He know's he is loved by many.
The first guy... I wish I'd called him. I wish he'd called me...

I recall this thread starting, and followed it for a while. I'm going to go back and read it. Just reading this page, there's some courageous posts.
Thank you for your honesty. Without a doubt, you will help someone.
With Gratitude and Respect.

[whitelion65]

Good to hear you’re turning the corner (or at least attempting to V).
I had a bad year last year, with a move, illness in the family, and getting white-anted at work.
I reached out to a new doctor, and she’s been fantastic. I went onto SSRI’s, and started to see a councillor.
If going onto meds, have a good talk with your doc, and do some research. I was almost locked away due to adverse effects of Escalitopram. I’ve played around a bit with the dose since (in consultation with the doc).
After New Year, Inwas feeling pretty good, and gave them away. Told the doc around a week later. Whilst she is supportive, I’m pretty sure that she’s worried.
The difficulty is knowing whether I’m feeling better ‘cos the meds are finally working, or if I have turned a corner.
I still have a good support network, including a session with my councillor this week.
I will say ‘though, that the physical symptoms from withdrawal are f@#$ horrible! Doc warned me that I should have eased off, not cold turkey. Giving the booze a miss too, which has been good, although I have been having some on the weekend. Balancing the booze vs booze-free days, I’m going to try for a total cut. Any social events, I can still have a drink, and not feel guilty.
Enough rambling!
Stay strong folks, put one foot in front of the other, if that’s all you can do. Where there’s life, there’s hope. Talking to people has been the best thing for me.
Hoping I can maintain the course.
Solidarity!

[Grega]

Vekgib good to hear things are looking up mate, thats great.

This time of year is a very difficult time for people who suffer from Anxiety and Depression - I struggle with it greatly and prefer to work through it so I can avoid what I call 'the feels' from it and all the other stuff that goes with it.

Its almost a year now since I tried to disappear from existence, I am also still here, have changed meds and pretty much turned my life around, the environment /situation I was in was not good for my mental health so I have left part of that behind and I am far better as a result. I've also learnt alot about myself (I sit on the ASD spectrum which has helped me understand why I am the way I am) and most importantly I am looking after myself and provided self care for myself which has helped in leaps and bounds.

There will be so many people reading this thread who are in a really bad place ; some of this stuff is really hard to take in as you may not be ready to hear it yet / take the information on board, just take it one step at a time, one foot after the other and get through to a better place.

With medication I am on Fluoxetine and weened off Effexor, Effexor was not good for me, Fluoxetine is much better and helps me greatly. I have made peace with the fact that I will be on this for the rest of my days ; its OK its just because of who I am and society that I need to work in that is the result of my needed assistance, if I could change it up entirely I could do without them but, we all need to make our way through the system ; a little help, helps you get by.

[Vekgib]

Originally Posted by Grega

Its almost a year now since I tried to disappear from existence, I am also still here, have changed meds and pretty much turned my life around, the environment /situation I was in was not good for my mental health so I have left part of that behind and I am far better as a result.

Thank you for your kind words. It's good to see that you are still here.
Hang in there.
Tough times don't last but tough people do.

[whitelion65]

Back on the meds :-(

[Syndrome]

Originally Posted by whitelion65

Back on the meds :-(

I came to terms with my situation knowing:

- a good friend of mine is on a cocktail of drugs because of renal failure to prevent his body rejecting his donated kidney
- my Godmother has been a diabetic for decades so has to take insulin on a daily basis
- another friend of mine who is younger than me has to take medication to reduce his blood pressure. And he only started taking the medication after he had a minor stroke in his early 40s

So if I need to take on table a day for my anxiety/panic attacks then so be it. A small price to pay.

[Grega]

@vekgib where are you man. hope you are OK out there.
@whitelion mate, most of the population is, you're not alone.

its strange how life works, last week i was fantastic, this week i'm back at rock bottom zero. life sure piles it on. and its my anniversary on Monday.

if anyone has a good way of turning off feelings completely can you please reach out and let me know?

stay safe people.

[Grega]

nailed it @syndrome.
i also take blood pressure meds as i have high blood pressure.

my take is this ; my brain works very differently to the masses, i typically do not fit in, as i sit on the ASD spectrum, and have ADD, something i only learnt just this year, but i have struggled with forever.

fluoxetine helps me keep things in check, thats all. look at it this way, if your car was built before 1987 and had a cast iron head and was at risk from hammering the valves you'd give it a bit of upper cylinder head lubricant in the tank to help it get by. its a poor analogy but to car guys will have relevance.

[GASWAGON]

Try 10 years of working for poor wages plus lots of O.T to make decent money, being bullied enough to be forced to quit job (had enuff anyways), lost 60,000k due to living without dole for 6 months, then got thrown out of house for heavy driniking and depression due to lack of work, Schizzophrenia, weight gain. Docs and Phsyciatrists for 5 years while also trying to patch up relationship for 4 years after seperation and keep spending time with my son.

Then, 9 months ago, she tells me she been online dating and screwing around for about 3 months b4 telling me!!!!!!!!!!

Now 'I" have an IVO 'on me' for about another 6 months and only get to see my son when 'its' o.k'???

Better off turning Gay FFS!!!!!!!!!!!

[Grega]

sorry BF260-BOSS

i had the rug pulled out from under me. i fell in love with another girl ; probably too quickly to be honest, she needed to 'recalibrate' which i took as being the end, was chastised for taking it that way only to find a week later that she doesn't want to be a girlfriend any more and doesnt have time.

its my destiny to be alone.

[Grega]

PS: lifeline aside from empathy are absolutely useless. its only a job and call volumes are what matter. i hope i make it.

[DFB FGXR6]

Bringing this thread back to the top.

With whats happening at the moment it's vital we reach out to those who may need it.

A simple "how are you" or a smile is all it takes sometime to ease the burden.

Myself, I am dealing with it all much better than I would have 12 months ago.

[nuthin' fancy]

Originally Posted by DFB FGXR6

Bringing this thread back to the top.

With whats happening at the moment it's vital we reach out to those who may need it.

A simple "how are you" or a smile is all it takes sometime to ease the burden.

Myself, I am dealing with it all much better than I would have 12 months ago.

I think we are fortunate to find ourselves here, an online forum that has, on many occasions, done so much more than simply be a chat room.

I got a job from here and that led me to my current job.

One guy bought a car and wanted someone to help him drive it back from Brisbane to Darwin, organised in a day. Great thread of the trip (can't find it, though).

There are many examples here, it is a good place to reach into and out from.

Try and stay positive.

[Grega]

yeah, some interesting points here.

i am super introverted so the current setup works for me as business as usual. but my extroverted friends are struggling big time with it. as we get the place they are in, please hear them out when they come calling, i have heard from people of late i have not heard from in just about ever, because, they need help.

stay safe, practice your self help and help others as much as you can without neglecting yourself.

[MercuryT]

I've tried to kill myself a few times since Ex and Family Court screwed me over completely.

Luckily Valium (Diazapam) is not something can usually overdose on (I was very lucky)

Now on Endep (Amilytripaline) 50mg a day it's been fantastic. Sleep better particularly.

Feel so much but stay safe guys and girls : )

[FTE217]

Hey take CARE you fellow forumers, I'm not perfect by any means but always happy to reply to any post for support.......
I'm sure many had and still have challenges on top of this pandemic - log in someone will always be here.

[Citroënbender]

Against the 20-odd Aussie deaths ascribed to CV in March, there have probably been over 250 suicides in Australia. It’s a sobering comparison - especially given the difficulties highlighted by others here, in a time of unprecedented suppression.

[danzvtil]

Grega’s comment about extroverts is spot on, it’s almost hilarious if the current times weren’t so serious- Us introverts need to be strong right now to support our extrovert friends who are really struggling.
I’m also mindful of our retail workers, I spend time in stores unpacking stock, and dealing with daft customers who don’t respect social distancing, leaves my adrenal system pinging off the limiter. I can leave a store after 2 or 3 hrs feeling like I’ve run a marathon. The poor workers who are there doing 12-15 hr days I really tip my hat to. Some are anxious, some have closed down, others are beyond it, trying to laugh off the craziness.
I liken the current situation to being in the surf, when a huge wave swamps you, don’t fight it, allow it to ride over the top and stand back up again.The covid wave will pass over us, and there will be the other side.
Society tells us that we need to always be in control, and to strive to change what is disagreeable to us. Knowing you can’t change some things is quite liberating.

[MercuryT]

BTW for those (like me) prescribed Diazapam (Valium) to get off alcohol be very careful.

Don't take for any longer than absolutely required.

Withdrawing from Valium was even worse than the drink (which was bloody rough.......the hallucinations not cool at all.
I was found in neighbouring properties hiding from a person that didn't exist).

[FoxtrotGolfXray 5.0]

Originally Posted by MercuryT

BTW for those (like me) prescribed Diazapam (Valium) to get off alcohol be very careful.

Don't take for any longer than absolutely required.

Withdrawing from Valium was even worse than the drink (which was bloody rough.......the hallucinations not cool at all.
I was found in neighbouring properties hiding from a person that didn't exist).

Mate, I honestly and sincerely wish you all the best with your fight against depression. I've never been there myself, and hope that I never do.

Take care of yourself.