Re: Depression, Anxiety
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My whole life has been the same. Teachers hated me because I would **** around and still ace tests. They wanted me tested for adhd, but the phsyc said I was just lazy and enjoyed the challenge of beating my teachers mentally into submission. The only way forward for me is a total personality change and after 33yrs of being this way I don't know how. I have been through a lot, had more lofe exp than people twice my age, had 5 heart surgeries since birth and require more, found my mum trying to suicide a dad who left and decided a new famiky was better and nothing I did pleased him. My kids don't even know who my dad is. I have tried to commit suicide etc. There are people way worse than me, I am healthy but mentally I just wonder some days if it is easier to drop off the planet as changing me seems too hard, too scary and don't even know where to begin.
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